Well, the insanity of running a camp is nowhere close to starting for my crew. We still have another 2 weeks of freedom basically. However, today we all (especially myself) got an insight of the craziness that goes on behind the scenes at Group headquarters to help run a single camp.
There was some issue with other Summer Staffers paychecks, so I had to help out 2 of the Group employees that work for Group Workcamps, to overnight people's paychecks. People who are staying at random places all over the country and Puerto Rico. Working with a deadline was exciting, but hearing the backlash about the problem and such made me feel really bad for Jobe and Staci (the 2 people I was helping out today). At least it was a good insight/preparation for what is about to come my way.
I've been experiencing a few different things the past few days. A whole mix of emotions. I have been getting a little nervous about the upcoming camp week, being that I haven't been a training atmosphere in a while, and everyone else I trained with has been with other people in my position/have been on the road. I've also been getting antsy, just wanting to hit the road already. However, at the same time, I've been so thankful that I've had time off with my crew here in Fort Collins. I've learned more about all of them, and I've also had the chance to meet and get to know two really great girls, Krista (Special K), and Madisynne, who will be staying running a Week of Hope camp in Loveland at a Catholic Church. We've been having family meals, movie nights, and just an all around good time with them...so that has been amazing.
Despite all these emotions, last night was a moment of clarity, an "a-ha" moment if you would. 4 of us went to find a Redbox to rent a movie, which was "He's Just Not That Into You" (not too great btws). I was a little tired, but I wasn't gonna be anti-social so I stayed up to watch the movie and clean dishes. We were sitting around after the movie joking around and making fun of its ridiculousness, and I can't remember a time where I laughed so much. It was all silly stuff, but it was just one of those moments that will never be recreated and was the perfect way to end a night.
I went to bed last night wanting anything with my crew, or with my position, or my emotions on the job to change for the rest of the summer, but I know it won't be that way. Things will happen, things are gonna challenge us, there won't always be moments like last night, but there's no reason to spoil what I have with worries about the future. Last night I realized that I am prepared for this job, I'm ready, and my crew...this week brought us together, we know more about each other and we're ready to be on our own and on the road.
I've already seen some of the spiritual effects of this job. It's given me so much more faith and trust in those around me...which is something (let's be honest) I normally lack...extremely.
So as for the jumble of emotions that's been going on...It's finally settled and I'm just content.
Content with my Starbucks (which yes...the people at the one here in Fort Collins already recognize me. Sad? Yes. Thank goodness I'm leaving soon)
Content listening to music and relaxing, while the rest of the house is napping.
Content with the route we set today (First stop Kansas City Saturday night, then St. Louis, then Nashville, the Rocky Mount, VA!)
Content with change...cause it's the one thing you can always count on hitting at some point.
God bless,
Catherine
"Breathe in the familiar shock of confusion and chaos"-Brandon Heath "Give Me Your Eyes"
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